Ok I am going to just rant for a bit and not talk about surgery and how life sucks ‘blah, blah, blah…’
I really wanted to do tough Mudder. Can you do Tough Mudder after surgeries? Most importanly can I do CROSSFIT?! Fuck me that is what makes my day. I had to cancel even for the last month due to funds being limited and back to back doctor’s appointments.
nobody seems to really listen to me. I want to go back to Olympic weight lifting, I want to do tough mudder even if my IC is so bad I piss down my legs. Yes, the visuals are good here. I understand the want and need to do these mad crazy races after you have lost limbs, had heart attacks, etc. But no colon? Kpouch, BCIR or the dreaded fucking external bag? My goal is to be bad doing WODs like mad. If I can WOD with IC I will be damned if I can’t WOD with no colon and rectum and possible colon cancer and chemo, etc etc etc.
I just can’t find these people. I hear of guys lifting heavy after jpouches but crossfit is so much more. Oh Ativan how you rock my world during this rough time. Anxiety is my first name now, screw it being the middle name.
OLY LIFTING!!! I MISS YOU!!!!!